February 28, 2017
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February was a whirlwind of emotions and feelings. Early on, something really sad happened. I cried for [redacted], over and over again. My mind begin to sink into the abyss, drifting further away from the passion I once had. What woke me up though, was Sword Art Online. Its movie, Ordinal Scale, released in theaters on the 18th. I wasn’t prepared, nor was I in the mood, for it. Still, from a friend’s encouragement, I went to watch it on release day. This entire event made me realize things I had forgotten about and showed me the strength I needed to move forward again. The reasons why I came to Japan are all around me. I must to attain the ability to reach out for them.
So, due to the events during this month, the way I spent my free time changed in two major ways. One, I stopped building gunpla. Two, I focused on games, especially SAO:HR. //Continue Reading//
January 31, 2017
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January. New year. 2017.
However, for me, this January did not represent a new beginning. The situation has not changed. Injured, I am still crawling through the mud, trying to get out of this swamp. December 2016 was the end of many things. And now, I must restart from zero. Despite being in Japan for 4 months, I have not moved on from square one. Absolutely pathetic. //Continue Reading//
October 30, 2016
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If I were to give last month a subtitle, it would be “A Monument To All My Sins”. For this month, it would be “Where Is My Beginning?”. My time spent flying to Japan was a travel, but my time here in Japan will be a journey. My real life, the beginning of a personal journey, of which the destination being a future I desire. However, nothing has started. The whole month was all preparation and settling in. Most of which I had no control over. Is this my beginning? My real life, where and when is it? Perhaps it started already. Perhaps it can’t be found here. I am not quite ready yet, but surely I will start.
This month started on a weekend, and I decided that the first thing I will do for this month is to go to Akihabara. After waiting for so long to come to Japan, it was hard to feel that I really am here. To reorient myself, I did what I have always done in Japan, shopping. It had been over 4 years since my last visit to Akihabara. But this time, I was not alone. I was joined by my good friend Xyrenth who started her life here in Japan 2 months ago. The entire day will be talked about in detail in its own post later. After Akihabara, I returned with Xyrenth to her apartment where we checked out our goods. I slept over and the next day, I stayed in the apartment, taking the time to relax. I started on a gunpla, booted up a game on the PSV, and also helped Xyrenth with her RG Sinanju. In the evening, I returned back to Chiba. By then, a few housemates have arrived and I greeted them. Some more people arrived later that night. Continue Reading