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A Snapshot of Thoughts #7 – November 9th, 2018

Solitude. Thinking about my life right now, that’s the first word that came up in my mind. Reflecting back upon my life, my social interactions with friends in particular, I wondered how things could have been different. There had been occasions where I missed (or skipped) the chance of meeting new people. I wonder if I had not been shy, or simply had full understanding of the situations, if I could have meet my one and only.

Currently, there are people near me that I could supposedly call “friends”. However, there isn’t anyone here that I connect with on a deep level. I don’t have any best friends in Japan. Just recently for the past 3 months, my little brother came to visit me in Japan. And before him, my friend Lettuce (whom I consider a best friend) was in Japan with him from April 2017 until April 2018. However, they are not here anymore. They and the rest of my really good friends are all on the other side of the ocean. I am alone.


「終わり(そして始まり)」- Struggles in Japan 18 – March 2018

The month of March started off with bad news, bad luck, and just trouble overall. I won’t mention any details but certain things derailed and when the month turned to April, it exploded. By sheer luck and timing, I was able to save myself. In fact, I can even argue that I am in a better place now than before. In March, a lot of things came to an end. I have been considering many things and decided that it is time for this blog to come to an end as well.

When I started this blog as a high school student in 2010, I had a fair amount of free time. But now, things are different and I have way too much to do. I cannot afford to play catch-up and this blog is entirely that. I cannot fully explain my reluctance to pick up the camera in recent years but for as long as I continue to feel that way, this blog will be on hiatus. Thank you for the 8 years.

I purchased a new desk that is perfect for my tasks.

Below: my life in the month of March.
I have finished moving into the new community share house. All that remains is to clean out the previous house. Already it is a quarter into 2018. Everything I want to do, I must start today, to settle down and set up my own space and new life. I have a new desk that will be my station from today forward. //Continue Reading//

A Snapshot of Thoughts #6 – March 15th, 2018

What kind of future do you seek for yourself?

For most of my life, I avoided thinking about my future. I didn’t know what I want to be or what I want to do. It was tiresome enough just to endure through today and tomorrow. If I did had any idea, it was that I wanted to be in Japan.

And now, I am here in Japan.
But life doesn’t just end there. My story isn’t a “I got to Japan and lived happily ever after” story.

I am alive here today, and have to connect the present to the future for as long as I am alive. However, it is clear that the path in front of me is a caved in tunnel. What I must do now is to dig my way out.
Not a pretty picture, right? Digging your bare hands into a pile of endless rubble, with no idea when or how the whole place might come down on you. If there is anything that is certain, it is that nobody will help you. You are on your own. I am on my own.

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「心待ち」- Struggles in Japan 17 – February 2018

The month of February felt incredibly long. Funny, given it being the shortest months. But thinking back to the events that happened during the first or even second week, it all felt like it was so long ago. Much of it might be due to me anticipating two events: the PS4 game Sword Art Online: Fatal Bullet, and moving into a new community based share-house.

Having decided where to move to, I soon started to pack up and sort through my things. My scheduled move-in date was the middle of the month, so although somewhat early, I didn’t want to wait knowing that I have a task to be done.

The new empty room I am moving into.

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一月の購入物 January Loots – 2018

Coming back from my first time to Comiket just last month, the first things I went out to buy this month were more doujinshi. Being was unexprienced in Comiket, I wasn’t able to see everything, especially on the last day when many booths were already sold out or packed up by the time I got to them. Although I bought a good amount of things, what surprised me the most was that I actually didn’t purchase much R18 books. I expected myself to end up with a large stack of R18 doujinshi, but instead my eyes got drawn to illustrations and character design stuff. That’s not a bad thing obviously, but I wanted more R18 doujinshi, so I took a trip to Toranoana in order to recuperate that and start the brand new year happy and satisfied with my Comiket experience.

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「初!!」- Struggles in Japan 16 – January 2018

2018… a new year. For me, it is a new beginning as well, with new environments and people to get accustomed to. I cannot say that 2018 is looking all that promising in terms of my personal life, but I will declare here that I will make the most of it however I can. At the very least, the year ahead doesn’t look grim. I am satisfied for it to be average.

Hobby-wise, 2018 looks to be a grand year for Sword Art Online and video games in general. The game Sword Art Online: Fatal Bullet will be coming out soon, plus airing later in the year, two anime series, the Alicization Arc and Gun Gale Online. Video games in general, I am interested in Monster Hunter World, New Gundam Breaker, Code Vein, and Anthem. And although nothing specific just yet, gunpla is closing in on its 40th anniversary in 2020 and with 2017 having an incredible set of releases, I look forward to what is planned for 2018.

Following my first time to Comiket, I started this year off by shopping for more doujinshi at Toranoana. Simply put, I wasn’t able to see everything, especially on the last day, and there were also stuff that sold out. Surprisingly, I actually didn’t purchase much R18 books, so the trip to Toranoana on the 1st was to recuperate all of that to make sure I was satisfied with my Comiket experience and to start the year off happy.

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A Snapshot of Thoughts #5 – January 29th, 2018

For my monthly posts regarding my daily life in Japan, I have titled it “Struggles in Japan”. Recently, I thought about whether or not it was time to end it, and start a new daily life in Japan series with a more positive title in its place. But sadly, my struggles won’t cease anytime soon.

My life had never been easy. Seeking somewhere better, a place I could call home and feel like I belonged in, I took my chances and came to Japan. Only a year after graduating from university and with no professional experience nor skills, I now realize that it was a rash and risky decision. However, the only other choice I had was to remain living an uncomfortable life in that country. Out of the frying pan and into the fire. I can’t say that either is better than the other. And now, I have came to the realization that for many years to come, I will continue to face challenges of sustaining my life in Japan.

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「初めてのコミケット」- Struggles in Japan 15 – December 2017

The last month of 2017, it is a time for celebration and reflection. For me, 2017 has the hardest year of my life so far, and it was also the year in which I was most saved. After hitting rock bottom, the only way things could go was up. And I survived. In the final quarter of the year, I finally made it to square one. So now I celebrate, the joy of being in Japan.

2nd – Having finished reading a number of volumes of the Accel World novels, ending the Chrome Disaster arc, I summarized the story for my brother. It ended up taking 5.5 hours and I felt sincerely bad about taking his time (and his time to sleep), but also felt so grateful that I have a brother that was willing to listen to me talk for hours on. We caught up on other things too, such as some drawings and models. //Continue Reading//

「読書+久々の大量買い」- Struggles in Japan 14 – November 2017

November was a long month, by the end of which my new life has settled into a routine. Around mid-month, I felt disappointed that I still haven’t finished my hobby backlog, to allow myself to move on and commit to practicing new skills. In between work, sleep, cooking and eating, + other life activities, little time is left for me to focus on my hobbies. However, I have already decided to take things at my natural pace. While I still haven’t finished enough to move on, looking back at what I did the past few months, I did finish a considerable amount. Over half of my backlog has been cleared. My own guess is that I am 70% of the way through, with manga mostly done and games being the heaviest obstacle left. //Continue Reading//

A Snapshot of Thoughts #4 – November 17th, 2017

It has been a while since the previous A Snapshot of Thoughts. Not that I haven’t been thinking about anything, but I haven’t had any conclusive thoughts about my new situation. I have been busy enjoying myself, spending my free time to finish up my backlog of things to do that I have built up over the years. However, I do have one complex topic that I have been thinking to myself about for the last couple months and now I think I know what I want to say.

That topic is friendship.
In more detail, it is about myself and my social interactions with other people. //Continue Reading//