2017 was the hardest and the most unstable year of my life so far and the difficulties continued into the first quarter of 2018. After that first quarter of struggles though, the rest of the year was then about settling down.
That period of transition in April, that very timing was special. A lot of drastic changes happened at once. My sole friend in Japan is gone, I had a new working environment, I had decided to end this blog, and more. A new life to get adjusted to.
By ending the blog, and that being ending the recording of my daily life, I had much less stress and could use my free time more freely. I still try to keep up with my monthly loots, and that is about it. The blog is now something I update and work on randomly from time to time rather than sitting down for hours trying to recall my last month of activities.
Work-related wise (which I don’t like to mention, so just briefly), the conditions are now significantly better than before in multiple ways. Coupled with my new living conditions that is the sharehouse, I have finally attained the environment that I so desperately desired. An environment where I can sleep in comfort, earn a decent living, and focus on my goals.
Then, over the summer and partially into autumn, my little brother came to visit me in Japan for 3 months. For me, it was a reunion, for I had not seen my little brother in person in 2 years. We kept in contact online, and he had been a huge mental support. And it was also his first time to Japan. We hanged out on a daily basis: watching anime and Kamen Rider, playing games on the PSV and PS4, attending special events, watching movies in theaters, eating out, or going out to sight-see. Much like with my friend who was with me in Japan the year prior, I hope that the time in Japan was meaningful for him.
My little brother coming to live with me for 3 months, by chance, triggered another set of changes that ultimately resulted in me having my own room. I knew that I wanted my own room, but I did not expect it to happen this soon. Now, in addition to being able to sleep in comfort, earn a decent living, and focus on my goals, I can also fully enjoy my hobbies.
From then until the end of the year was just me trying to focus on my goals again. The progress of which had been very very slow and it is something that I understand will take me many years just to achieve a level satisfactory to myself. All I can do is continue to work on it whenever I could. Some day. Some day.
My wish for next year. It has taken me a very long time to attain this new life with a balance of sleeping, earning, practicing, and enjoying. The current environments that make up my lifestyle right now are so so so dire to me, and my only wish is to have it continue throughout 2019. My initial savings goal had also just been achieved as of the end of 2018. Until I feel ready for the second phase of my savings goal, I will lift my restriction on personal expenses and truly buy whatever I want. If my belongings are a monument to all my sins, then at the very least, I hope they will ankor me to life in Japan.
I feel faithful for next year.