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「毎日楽しいの為に」 Flawless Passion

「初めてのコミケット」- Struggles in Japan 15 – December 2017

The last month of 2017, it is a time for celebration and reflection. For me, 2017 has the hardest year of my life so far, and it was also the year in which I was most saved. After hitting rock bottom, the only way things could go was up. And I survived. In the final quarter of the year, I finally made it to square one. So now I celebrate, the joy of being in Japan.

2nd – Having finished reading a number of volumes of the Accel World novels, ending the Chrome Disaster arc, I talked with my little brother online, summarizing the story for him. It ended up taking 5.5 hours and I felt sincerely bad about taking his time (and his time to sleep), but also felt so grateful that I have a brother that was willing to listen to me talk for hours on. We caught up on other things too, such as some drawings and models. //Continue Reading//

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「読書+久々の大量買い」- Struggles in Japan 14 – November 2017

November was a long month, by the end of which my new life has more or less settled into a routine. Around the middle of the month, I felt disappointed that I still haven’t been able to finish all of my hobby backlog, to allow myself to move on and commit to practicing new skills. In between work, sleep, cooking and eating, and other life activities, very little time is left for me to actually focus on my hobbies. However, I have already decided a while back to take things at my natural pace. While I still haven’t finished enough to move on, looking back at what I did the past few months, I did finish a considerable amount. Over half of my backlog has been cleared. My own guess is that I am 70% of the way through, with manga mostly done and games being the heaviest obstacle left.

The first thing I did this month was to blow my very first full paycheck. Not all of it, mind you. Just half. In the past year, I had to endure through not buying many things, from hobby to leisure to even living essentials. But now, literally, I can afford them. On the 3rd, I went shopping in Akihabara, buying models, a figure, some cards, and some other stuff. It felt good going on a shopping spree and I felt like myself again, reminded of my first time in Japan. My shopping didn’t end there. Online, I ordered a portable mattress, desk lamp, hugging pillow, among other things I needed.
It took me a while to decide on a dakimakura cover, which later arrived on the 13th. The pillow that I bought for it was an incredibly expensive but high quality one, full size and amazingly fluffy. My past couple hugging pillows were cheap and not designed specifically for dakimakura covers. Now my worry is how to keep them nice and clean. //Continue Reading//

A Snapshot of Thoughts #4 – November 17th, 2017

It has been a while since the previous A Snapshot of Thoughts. Not that I haven’t been thinking about anything, but I haven’t had any conclusive thoughts about my new situation. I have been busy enjoying myself, spending my free time to finish up my backlog of things to do that I have built up over the years. However, I do have one complex topic that I have been thinking to myself about for the last couple months and now I think I know what I want to say.

That topic is friendship.
In more detail, it is about myself and my social interactions with other people. //Continue Reading//

「積み消去に勤しむ」- Struggles in Japan 13 – October 2017

Starting in October, the weather is finally cooling. Before long, it felt cold as if winter. Relatively speaking that is. The actual winter here in Japan is simply colder than what I am used to. Anyways, the current weather makes for great nice days sleeping in and staying in the futon while reading manga.

6th~10th – My first goal of this month was to start and finish the Maiden of the Abyss DLC expansion for SAO:HR. And so, I stayed over at my friend Lettuce’s apartment for a few days. Even so, on the last day, I had to stay up all night playing the game, just to barely finish by early morning. I know my friend didn’t sleep well with the TV flashing all night long, so sorry about that, and thank you letting me play.
To me, it was a very good story DLC that was worth the money. I still have a bit more content left to do actually, such as character events to unlock some last cutscenes. I read some Accel World during breaks from the game, and also bought Lettuce a birthday gift, a HG Gundam Local Type [NAF] model, then treated him to dinner at Johnathan’s. //Continue Reading//

「忙しい日常の始まり」- Struggles in Japan 12 – September 2017

On the 1st weekend, I went over to my friend Lettuce’s apartment. Originally, I planned to start on SAO:HR’s サクラメンツ・インベーション 3 and 蒼空の闘士 update content. However, despite the free level boost of all characters to lv.80, the difficulty of the サクラメンツ・インベーション 3 dungeons were still near impossible. So instead, I watched Lettuce play Bloodborne. //Continue Reading//

「休息」 – Struggles in Japan 11 – August 2017

This month was a transition period. And thus, I have the entire month off as free time. For me, it was a much needed break. I spent most of it staying over at my friend Lettuce’s apartment. As such, being out of the house for most of the time combined with my neglect of the camera and blog, I only have a couple terrible photos of my desk. //Continue Reading//

「進路変更」 – Struggles in Japan 10 – July 2017

Let’s talk about this blog. To be honest, I have lost in interest in blogging. More accurately, I have I lost interest in photography, as I have always disliked writing. To me right now, time is scarce and valuable, which doesn’t go well with my inability to write within any reasonable amount of time. I want to quit blogging and already have for the most part. The monthly life and loot posts are all that is left, and still, that is too much for me to handle. My degree of neglect is to the point of never wanting to pick up my camera ever again. I have more important things to do.

However, as much reasons and excuses I give myself, stopping this blog entirely means giving up my memories during this period. That is something I cannot do. And so, everything is delayed and on hiatus while I work out a new way of approaching things.

I have started to take life easy and slow, no longer forcing myself. I have a clearer idea of what I want to do, how to accomplish them, and what I must do right now. At the same time, I realize and accept my incompetence, as well as recalling upon my life philosophies. Before anything else, I must regain myself, the person I truly am, before I can be who I want to be. It is a great feeling to immerse in my hobbies without constraints, for my true path lies within there. //Continue Reading//

「降り続く光」 – Struggles in Japan 9 – June 2017

June, half way into 2017. In this year, I have been through tough times and even despaired, but since April, various aspects of my life here started to improve. This month, I have been offered a chance overturn my current stalemate of a situation. Finally within reach is the position of remaining in Japan under a stable and enjoyable environment while building up resources for the future. A favorable living environment, a stable balance of time and money, a promising path to the future, the results of which was an especially busy month. During my free time, I enjoyed whatever I can, an attempt to reduce my stuffed backlog of things to do. On days off, I visited explored potential paths for the distant future. Things are getting better, and I must make full use of the time I can now afford.

On the 2nd – finished the second volume of Bakemonogatari. I have been reading the novels of Bakemonogatari since January and I wanted to finish the second book by the end of May. I had about a hundred pages left and sadly fell short of my goal by a couple days. //Continue Reading//

The Promised 24th Birthday

Years and years ago, during my high school days, I promised myself that by the age of 24, I will be living in Japan. I just turned 24.

It was a wish that came half true at best. I may be currently present in Japan, however I am far from having settled down or even know for how much longer I can continue to stay in Japan. In addition, I am unable to live freely, constrained by many things. I am here but not here. Never had I thought my life would travel down this path.

As for my birthday itself, the day wasn’t how I wished it was. I wanted to spend at least the early morning out and about alone, if not the entire day. But things came up. The best I could do, was to buy myself a small dessert in place of a cake while indulging the darkness of night.

Much like my 14th or 16th birthday, 24 was a number I wanted to be special. But of course and of course, nothing happened. An empty promise, an empty birthday. But perhaps, one day…

五月の購入物 May Loots – 2017


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For a long time, since years and years ago, I have wanted to read light novels. Not every book gets its own anime series and even for those that did, the anime usually could cover only the first few volumes and rarely all the way to the end. Thus, if one is a fan of a series that was originally a light novel series, one would have to read the light novels to know the story beyond the anime. Although this applies to manga as well, manga is a lot easier (and more fun) to read than light novels. So, for the month of May, I received one package, a single set of loots. Without any additional babble, let’s go straight to seeing what the loots are.

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