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「毎日楽しいの為に」 Flawless Passion

A Snapshot of Thoughts #1 – April 19th, 2017

Originally, I was going to take a photo of a sakura tree, of which the flowers have mostly fallen off by now, as an example to show how things keep on slipping by in my current life. Spring came and the sakura bloomed. If it was me several years ago, I would have been excited, going around places taking photos of the flower to upload onto this blog. Even now, I reminisce about the moments I spent in Kyoto during spring 2012. This year, this time in Japan, I have not taken a single photo of them. The sakura petals have fallen and they are gone now. Much like my inability to take photos of the sakura on time, other things in my life simply keep on slipping by. The reasons and scenarios were various. Anyways, I thought I was too late to yet another event.

But today, I saw these flowers at a park nearby. I admit. I don’t know what these flowers are. However, they fulfilled the same role as sakura in my heart, beautifully vivid pink trees in full bloom during spring. This wasn’t quite what I had imagined, but this alternative will do. I dreamed of living together with friends in Japan, hanging out, buying things, and engaging our hobbies. My life right now isn’t quite what I had imagined… but perhaps… this alternative might do.
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MG ガンダムエクシア 製作その⑫ 【武装】 MG Gundam Exia – WIP 12– [Weapons]

The weapons are always what I build last for any model and this MG Gundam Exia was no exception. The blue parts for the armors and weapons were painted on separate occasions, so I was quite surprised at how I was able to mix the exact same color without any trouble. The color, or more accurately the texture, of the frame pieces for the weapons though, was harder to match with the rest of the body, which was originally painted many years ago. //続きを見る Continue Reading//

MG ガンダムエクシア 製作その⑪ 【青い外装】 MG Gundam Exia – WIP 11 – [Blue Armor Pieces]

At long last, I now have the skills and ability to challenge what to me was the most difficult part of building this Master Grade Gundam Exia, painting the blue armor pieces in the color I envisioned. For years since I began building Gundam models, I only had access to a limited selection of colors from spray paints oriented for DIY use. But now I have access to an airbrush along with the proper paints for hobby use, thanks to my friend Blitz-X.

These are the pieces in question. A couple years prior, I had tried to work with a couple of the pieces but given up. First, I needed to undo the damages done, and then prepare the rest of the blue armor pieces. //続きを見る Continue Reading//

MG ガンダムエクシア 製作その⑩ 【白い外装】 MG Gundam Exia – WIP 10 – [White Armor Pieces]

For far too long, my build of my first Master Grade, Gundam Exia, had remained on hiatus. At the time of the last work-in-progress, I was facing the dilemma of what to do with the colored armor pieces, which were not going so well. The conclusion was that I simply did not have the ability to work with those parts in the way that I want to. I lost a fair amount of motivation and thus Gundam Exia remained boxed up in storage.

A couple years later in 2015, my modeling skills had improved, but more importantly, I met my good friend Blitz-X. Coincidentally, he was also building his own Master Grade Exia, so we thought it would be cool if we both worked on our Exia concurrently. My motivation returned, and the first step was to finish all of the white armor pieces.
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「失敗の味」 – Struggles in Japan 6 – March 2017

Life has many ups and downs, and that is especially true for me ever since I came to Japan last year. Repeating one month after another, it has been just rough cycles of things looking hopeful then things going wrong. This month was another down, another unsuccessful effort, another moment I must endure through. April was approaching. The start of a new year for businesses and academics in Japan. It was the prime time to seize an opportunity to change my situation. But once again, outside of my control, I fell into another pitfall. Ahh… this is the taste of failure.

This failure was only a small taste of what it would be like when my time runs out. My time in Japan isn’t over; it continues. Seeing it positively, a friend told me that things have simply reverted back to the original plan of studying for a year. While nothing improved, it didn’t worsen either. …or so I would like to fool myself into thinking.

In the past 6 months, I have been through a fair share of struggles and suffering. I honestly considered the option of giving up and going home. Oh, how I miss my mom’s food. Oh, how I miss playing with my brother. Oh, how I miss not having to worry about work and money. My life back in the States was not satisfactory. I was accomplishing nothing there, so I left to pursue greater happiness. But I am accomplishing nothing here either. I am exhausted… Just exhausted…

Without a future, the promise of friends was the only hope that kept me going. My friend March wants me to move into his dorm where space opened up and my friend Lettuce is coming to Japan. There were some dim lights in this dark dark tunnel…

Nothing changed much around my desk during this dreadful month.

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HG ガンダムバルバトス 第4形態 改造製作① HG Gundam Barbatos 4th Form – WIP 1

Ever since my marathon of all 25 episodes of Gundam: Tekketsu no Orphans, I have been very excited to get my hands on a HG Gundam Barbatos model kit. When I initially saw the HG model from a friend prior to watching the series, I didn’t think much of the Gundam. After seeing it in action in the anime though, my opinion instantaneously changed. I have not been this excited about purchasing and building a new model in a very long time, and it is a great feeling. //続きを見る Continue Reading//

「涙と悲しみと虚しさから立ち上がる力」 – Life in Japan 5 – February 2017

February was a whirlwind of emotions and feelings. Early on, something really sad happened. I cried for [redacted], over and over again. My mind begin to sink into the abyss, drifting further away from the passion I once had. What woke me up though, was Sword Art Online. Its movie, Ordinal Scale, released in theaters on the 18th. I wasn’t prepared, nor was I in the mood, for it. Still, from a friend’s encouragement, I went to watch it on release day. This entire event made me realize things I had forgotten about and showed me the strength I needed to move forward again. The reasons why I came to Japan are all around me. I must to attain the ability to reach out for them.

So, due to the events during this month, the way I spent my free time changed in two major ways. One, I stopped building gunpla. Two, I focused on games, especially SAO:HR. //Continue Reading//

1/144 ヴァルヴレイヴⅠ火人 Valvrave I Hito

革命機ヴァルヴレイヴ, or Valvrave the Liberator, was a series that I was very interested and had high expectations for during 2013. Browsing through the usual website I utilize for the latest hobby news, I saw the prototype for this “Valvrave”. It looked amazing. That very moment I knew I had to watch the show. After all, Bandai was making plastic models for a series that was neither Gundam or Macross. The highly anticipated first episode aired, and it did not disappoint. In fact, the entire first season did not disappoint. It is no exaggeration to say that it was on my list of favorites. …However, the second season… somehow failed to answer any of the mysteries that the first season set up and instead introduced confusion. Not only that, but what was most unacceptable for me was the slaughter fest throughout the second season.

Regardless of the anime, the mecha itself, the Valvrave, is an awesome design. For this post, let’s take a look at my build of the 1/144 Valvrave I Hito model from Bandai.


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一月の購入物 January Loots – 2017

Welcome to 2017. For my first loots of this new year, I had already anticipated what I was going to buy ahead of time, but I also made some unplanned purchases.


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「Restart:またゼロから」 – Life in Japan 4 – January 2017

January. New year. 2017.
However, for me, this January did not represent a new beginning. The situation has not changed. Injured, I am still crawling through the mud, trying to get out of this swamp. December 2016 was the end of many things. And now, I must restart from zero. Despite being in Japan for 4 months, I have not moved on from square one. Absolutely pathetic. //Continue Reading//